Missing my baby...

I thought I was done with the tears..I'm wrong. Tonight I got and overwhelming feeling and can't keep the baby off my mind. I think about that little face I will never see. The smiles like I get to enjoy everyday with Ethan. It's way harder than I thought. Andrew is ready to try again, but I'm just not. Emotionally I'm not ready, I miss my baby too much and I'm scared of this happening again.

Here is a song I found tonight, I love the lyrics. It's healing, it let me cry.
You can youtube it if you wanna hear it but here are the lyrics...

GLORY BABY - Watermark

Glory baby you slipped away as fast as we could say baby…baby..
You were growing, what happened dear?
You disappeared on us baby…baby..
Heaven will hold you before we do
Heaven will keep you safe until we’re home with you…
Until we’re home with you…

Miss you everyday
Miss you in every way
But we know there’s a day when we will hold you
We will hold you
You’ll kiss our tears away
When we’re home to stay
Can’t wait for the day when we will see you
We will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you‘till mom and dad can hold you…
You’ll just have heaven before we do
You’ll just have heaven before we do

Sweet little babies, it’s hard to understand it
‘cause we’re hurting
We are hurting
But there is healing
And we know we’re stronger people through the growing
And in knowing-
That all things work together for our good
And God works
His purposes just like
He said He would…
Just like He said He would…

BRIDGE:
I can’t imagine heaven’s lullabies
and what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing,
heaven is your home
And it’s all you’ll ever know…
all you’ll ever know…


Thank you to my dear friends that have been there for me. You know who you are!